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The World Is Full Of Mystery
Posted in Uncategorized with tags life, mystery, simple philosophy, thing, world on November 11, 2013 by Human BeingGoals and Things
Posted in Uncategorized with tags ALL THE THINGS, college, education, expression, goal, goals, how can i, life, school, schools, university on October 1, 2013 by Human BeingThis entry is largely personal. An expression of a bunch of shit I need to get written down and out of my head so that it stays organized and in one place before I lose my focus and spiral out of control again. It’s cool, I got this.
I need to go back to school. Since I am so far behind (by my estimation) time-wise, I would like to find a program that:
a) Can turn my existing credits into certification/piece of paper
b) Can give me a broad range of experience to make up for the several courses I could have taken in the meantime
c) Will earn me a diploma+degree or other multiple certification in less time
Is there a program at a school somewhere (Canada or heck, anywhere) in which I can get educated in a wide variety of the media arts? Do I have to specialize? Should I take several smaller, more specific programs (certificates/diplomas) that will combine to give me the experience I want? Or should I pick something very specific, very niche and master that? Work on that for a while and then diversify as it relates to other things? Should I bother researching these things more or just dive into something? I know I’ve been debating all this stuff for 2 years now, but I really, truly do feel as if I’ve made some sense of everything. Not to say that I wish to delay further. I am simply expressing my belief that these last 2 years have not been a waste of time at all, and though I haven’t yet chosen something, I have chosen some things for short periods of times that have proven useful and valuable in different ways.
I would like to be able to:
-publish books/magazines
-do clever things with words
-write/illustrate said print media
-write for movies & tv
-do art stuff (set, props, effects) for tv & movies
-act in movies & tv
-be the face/voice of media
-do freelance voicework
-work at a (college) radio station and host a show while being involved with the many other facets of the music industry
-learn, play, compose, perform and record music
-express my feelings about others’ music and network, do business etc with sound
-have an art studio in which I have space and resources to make things and undertake the crazy ideas and projects I often think of, write down and forget.
-collaborate
-design worlds
-learn some aspect of game design. art, world, character, story etc
-make music for games
-learn basic computer programming, maybe (for games and web)
-digital things like graphics, image manipulation
-master portable skills that are applicable in many lines of work
-be in nature
-be with animals
-work with people
-help people
-fight for change
-travel and gain perspective
-get confidence
-feel excitement
-have friends and be close with them
-be myself
Within each of these trajectories are several sub-trajectories. I could take the time to organize and turn these into lists and sub-lists and sub-sub-lists, but that would just be prolonging my eternal research/hesitation stage. The real-life embodiment of opening 34 tabs to read later. Eventually they start to slow down the computer. Analogies.
If I had a space in which to do these things, then I would have things to be blogging about, instead of blogging about wishing to be blogging and doing things. ENOUGH. Well, I have still done a lot of things. Am I too hard on myself? Should I feel discouraged and disappointed in myself for not having lived up to childhood standards for success? I will die an idealist, but I guess my future projections for myself 10 years ago were a tad over-optimistic. Who could have foreseen the stumbling blocks and detours, changes of course and breakdowns? A psychic, that’s who. … I don’t…
I am an introvert and possibly a loner. I am okay with the former but not so much with the latter. I see sadder, older people alone-ing all over the place and I do not wish to be like that. I am aware of the offers of friendship that I spurn, but it is out of a bizarre interest in self-reflection. Perpetual self-reflection for the purposes of productivity, progress and discovery. I turn them away so that I can focus on focusing myself. This doesn’t make sense and I do not like it. I need to live in a place full of people so that I cannot avoid social interaction. I mean, I do just fine with it when I am in the thick of it. It’s just getting to the thick of it that is so unappealing. I am simply not interested in certain social dynamics.
This is getting tangenty. Sign off.