Archive for the Issues Category

Bodies, Identities and Genders

Posted in Issues, Stream Of Consciousness, Uncategorized on July 10, 2017 by Human Being

Let me take a moment here to talk about bodies. Or my body. Or the vessel in which I move about the world. Perhaps I am my body, or maybe I just live in it, but either way, we are inseparable.

There are times when I identify more or less strongly with the experience of existing in this body I was born into and the ways in which society wants bodies like mine to operate. There are days when I embrace my curves and the sway of my hips beneath a flowing skirt. There are days when I feel compact and tight, strong and springy and there is no room for any flowing skirt. There are days when I want to hide in a shroud, when I feel awkward and uncomfortable no matter what I am doing or where I am. Some days I want to be dashing and handsome and can’t stand the runaway curls that tumble into my face. Some days I feel graceful and feminine but still want to do things that are not traditionally associated with femininity.

Gender is so much more than clothing. Obviously. But what I have learned is that clothing can help me “perform” my identities so that I feel more comfortable and confident moving through the world. It’s more than a costume, too, though as a theatrically-inclined person I definitely identify with the analogy of characters and costumes. Being pretty genderfluid means that I will feel very different from day to day, week to week, month to month, and I never know how I can expect to feel on any given day. So clothing helps me pick out, try on and fit into different facets of my personal identity wardrobe. Kinda? I am still far from figuring it out, believe me.

Anyway, just wanted to rant about that a little. Unedited, unfiltered. Yeah.

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Live Music, The Art of Performance And The Writing Of Songs

Posted in ART, Opinion, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , on April 17, 2013 by Human Being

I just saw Josh Ritter play at the Danforth Music Centre in Toronto. I’ve never experienced an artist–of any kind–who seems to be enjoying themselves as much as he is when he plays. It is clear that he’s having a blast, that he loves what he’s doing. It doesn’t hurt that he’s an immensely talented songwriter and lyricist–nay, a poet! So evidently appreciative of his audience, he has these small, subtle ways to make everything less formal and constrained. These touches draw the audience in to an intimate, heart-melting performance delivered eyes closed, with a smile. That smile. He smiled through just about every word of every song. Sometimes his passion comes so close to overflowing that he does these little enthusiastic, restrained hops or brings his hands up near his face and curls them into a supplicating pose. Sometimes he’ll face away from the crowd, or sing a verse away from the microphone (or a whole song) or even step back and use the head of his guitar to very, very gently tap the drum kit’s cymbal. He had us at his mercy, but he was right there with us. Amazing.

Sometimes I scold myself for not listening to the words of songs, but I can’t help but hear Ritter’s narratives and parables wrapped in his humble vocal melodies that warmly resonate from our eardrum straight to the heartstrings. The man knows how to put words together with sounds. Wow.

He is every inch a performer, but with no arrogant aftertaste or flashy gimmicks. He wants to be there for us, and we want him to be there just as much. He simply radiates joy when he sings. That extra sense or bundle of sense-like-things that we all have picks up on his…aura of radiant bliss. Maybe you have to be there. Maybe you should try to be there, someday. Yeah, you ought to.

Cake

Posted in Opinion, Stream Of Consciousness with tags , on April 14, 2013 by Human Being

I am about to enjoy a slice (the last slice) of cake. I am also quite sick and can smell and taste very little.
On one hand, I want to wait until I can taste it properly.
But I really just want cake.

I had lots of ideas when I finally got around to signing up, but…

Posted in Opinion, Writing on October 25, 2012 by Human Being

…I lacked the focus and motivation to get going and just write, already! I mean, that’s the whole point of a blog: to write! Right?

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